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Ice traction in Florida wtf???

cjax75 — Sun, 21 Dec 2008 17:22:00 +0000

Lynne from south shore of Boston,Ma who has been here off and on since 1986 along with Mike both from up north are wondering – what is the purpose of "ice traction slip ons" are needed in the sunshine state. Are we expecting sun snow or what? Lynne says it perfectly isn't this scary – its the mentally of people with no education…

Does florida get ice??? Can u use them in the ocean?? Interesting lol..

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Manic sunday

cjax75 — Sun, 21 Dec 2008 16:41:00 +0000

Today I'm feeling good, a little headache but overall much better. My friend Jonathan commented that I lost weight in the past couple of weeks – I looked in the mirror and see a difference. Is it my anxiety, depression or my rigorous work out I do? Walking so much??? My rx is working big time – I'm still so calm in lala land lol..

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Sexuality

cjax75 — Sat, 20 Dec 2008 23:42:00 +0000

Very good myself – a big pat on my back – why? Because I don't really care if people are aware of my sexuality preference. I'm who I am, not my choice but birth. If I don't want to sleep with a female its my choice – someone else can't tell me to be happy… Good??

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Life is so different on medication..

cjax75 — Sat, 20 Dec 2008 22:22:00 +0000

Wow its a wonderful feeling: while I am walking I am typing… My medications are really working I think. So far I am taking 10mg of one medication + one herbal supplement…. I feel so calm, I feel like I'm thinking clear – first time in years. I'm not really worried about anything. I am worried about work A little but things will turn out ok..

Very amazing… Think the rx is working???

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Mail Fraud??

cjax75 — Sat, 20 Dec 2008 17:09:00 +0000

Oh great.. What a great day its been. I had to call the Postal Inspector and Police Dept. Four of us individuals are not receiving all of our mail now or its being delayed big time. One of these individuals (out west) says she is getting suspicious calls saying she won a trip because she applied for a credit card, she never applied for one. Isn't this weird all of us are having problems? We all have known the same person?? Is it possible something is going on?

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Guilt, hurt and betray…

cjax75 — Sat, 20 Dec 2008 00:11:00 +0000

Tonight has been one of those nights. I am sitting in Barnes and Noble at the St Johns Town Center in Jacksonville,Florida.

Mike and I have been talking about the entire situation with what has transpired. He says he is experiencing more pain then me because he has been w me for 9 years. I tell him I’m feeling more pain because of what I experienced….. We both in reality aren’t feeling the same since we deal with pain differently. Differently in so many ways.

Ginger suggested we do something: we each talk for 10 minutes about how we feel. Well we did it; he says what’s happening now feels like what happened with his father many years ago. I feel that my heart and soul was ripped out. Of me. I feel that I am alone: the feeling of not having anyone, no income etc. It feels like I lost someone valuable in my life that I won’t be able to get back. It feels that I can’t love, trust anyone anymore. It feels like my life has been shattered. Feels totally horrible. My entire life I have dealt with the same stuff – “depression”.. My entire life I never felt close to anyone, that I feel like a stranger; like something is wrong with me mentally and physically… Is it my up bringing or what? Think its been an easy life? People on yahoo groups or chat lines think I have it so easy — yeah maybe if they lived with me they would see how out of wack everything is. I remember a incident in October/November 1999; I lived with a girl… She had the hots for me. Well anyways I didn’t like her sexually. Well a while after living with her she spoke with my Mom.. My mom told her how great my home life was… — well I wound up going home.

Is it my looks or what? I wish I never felt this bad. I look at other peoples lives: being happy and joyful… Having everything on a silver platter. How would it make you feel??

Until next time….

+++ JON +++

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Today is 3 weeks..

cjax75 — Fri, 19 Dec 2008 19:52:00 +0000

Today marks the third week that my life was turned upside down. I feel so angry because of how I was used for money, physically and sexually. I am also angry because of how everything ended. I am finally accepting that I've been used. I have been used by someone who I wanted to be with, used by a con artist. What would you have done in my situation?? Mike has become a friend as a result of all this unfolded Drama.

overall I am a little happier but sad because of what one person has done to me. I never once used someone for sex. I never once messed with someones emotions – how come I was used?

I'll be ok in time… I will find friends and a job — it just takes time

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Medication success

cjax75 — Fri, 19 Dec 2008 16:37:00 +0000

Wow!!!!

My medication is working; seems I am not as Hyper or depressed. I'm taking one over the counter and one perscription… Seems I am just mellow. Its so weird being so calm. I think its weird but can deal with it

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Where would u go?

cjax75 — Fri, 19 Dec 2008 15:12:00 +0000

So let's just say your alone with no family, friends or loved ones – where would you move? Its time to of course leave Jacksonville. Its time to leave this miserable city. I hate Jacksonville. We have nothing to do in this city. Most people are rude and ignorant.

What happened with my life here in Jacksonville is so insane: losing a loved one, can't seem to get stable employment, having a big break down over the past three weeks, losing friends + Family, a good paying job..

My medication is working: I'm mellow…. I feel like now I don't have an idea on what I want to do.. Hey better then before..

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Umm Blackberry returns

cjax75 — Fri, 19 Dec 2008 05:04:00 +0000

What a miracle I haven't done a post today: why? My blackberry fried last night during an upgrade – then Dave txtd me at ummm 3am saying hello (used another phone lol)

. I have felt overall pretty good with my rx adjustments (little tired), last night didn't sleep so good however.

I Spoke with Ginger today and she was cool; she told me I could come over and talk with her about what was going on but said No since I needed to figure it out.

I saw a retarded movie tonight.. At the theatre I was the only one in my party… The placed was filled however..

Oh the people at Escalade Marketing ticked me off – what morons. Won't get into details except its good I'm not working for such a disorganized company.

Have a great evening/morning

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